Hi friends! It’s Week 52 of the #52to50 Project and we’re starting BIG! Are you familiar with the concept of putting the “big rocks” first? Basically, it’s a way to focus on important things (the big rocks) and not let the little things (pebbles or sand) distract you from what matters most. When looking at my #52to50 list, I decided to prioritize my big rocks. What matters to me this year? What are the one or two items on my list I’ll be most disappointed about if they don’t get accomplished?
For me, the biggest rock by far, is my health. Losing weight is my top priority. Of course, it’s one thing to say it and quite another to go about changing habits and actually DO something about it. So, my challenge this week was to join a gym.
Let’s have some honest talk here. This one was hard. It was a real struggle. My head filled with things people might say when they saw me at the gym. “Look at the Fat Girl! What’s she doing here?” or “Sweaty Fat Girl can’t even make 5 minutes on the treadmill? She should go home!” and finally, ” Gosh, I hope the equipment doesn’t break from all her weight.” Yeah, my inner voice is not very nice. Consequently, I sat in the parking lot, staring at the building and had a minor panic attack at the thought of going inside. “I can’t do this!” battled pretty heavily with “Yes, you can!” Ugh! I finally sent a text to a friend and said “Tell me to go inside…” Thankfully, she responded right away with “GO INSIDE! You can do this!” So, I faced those ugly fears, got out of the car with knees wobbling and butterflies in my stomach and made it inside the door. I signed up for a year. No excuses! YIKES!
Here is where I’ll be spending a good portion of the next 52 weeks:
You’ll find me on the treadmill or recumbent bike or perhaps the 30 minute circuit. I’ll be the one still battling inner demons and rocking out to Disney Songs or Show Tunes on my iPhone. Come say hi, but please be nice. I’m still a little fragile with this whole concept.
The biggest take away for me this week was realizing how much control I give the voice in my head. That’s got to stop. Unless I can change my thoughts, I’ll never change my body. Replacing the negative chatter with positive thoughts and encouraging comments is my newest big rock. Without it, I’m doomed to repeat all the other failed attempts. I’m not about to let that happen! I also learned, it’s good to have friends who have your back and are willing to push you out of your comfort zone. Support for this goal is everything, both internally and externally.
What are some of the big rocks in YOUR life? Share with me in the comments below. I guarantee, you’re not alone and a burden is much easier when it’s shared. Let’s lift each other up and get motivated toward a happy, healthy life! I’m not fooling myself. The next 12 months are going to be rough, but the best things in life are often the ones that take the most work. That’s ok, because we can do it! I believe in us!
See you next week!
With all my love,
P.S. If anyone knows of good places to get plus-size workout wear, let me know! It’s not so easy to find things in my size. Thanks in advance!